(I’m wasted and) I can’t find my way home….

-Blind Faith

This song played in a bar on a jukebox at a very low point in my recent experience. I’ve always loved it but it hit me hard one afternoon in NYC.

The song describes a struggle with addiction but like all good art, music in particular, it is open to personal interpretation. We adopt certain songs with intimate understanding.

Although I have struggled with addiction for most of my adult life, this song has no meaning for me in that regard.

For me, the lyrics addressed how I was feeling about my diagnosis and the journey facing me.

I was wasted physically from radiation and hormone treatments.

I was wasted mentally; my mind wasn’t working normally.

I was wasted emotionally, overwhelmed really.

Most disturbing, I was wasted spiritually. I was questioning my faith.

Happily, I have mostly recovered in all respects, especially spiritually.

I hope I don’t have to find my way home any time soon, but I know I am up to the task when the time finally arrives.

My recovery is a result of the kindness, care and concern bestowed on me by my friends and family- it is that simple.

When I need a reminder of the blessings in my life, I play this song.

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